beauty in the dark

2023 I’ve been on a journey to romanticize the mundane and obstacles of my life. Saturday night was a time to practice that.

We’ve been without power since late Saturday night. We woke up to the dogs barking at the tornado sirens. Power was going in and out as I tried turning on the tv to check the weather. It was a really eerie feeling. Stayed up for a bit & things settled after 45 mins or so. 115mph winds ripped through Tulsa.

We woke up on Father’s Day to a mess in our backyard, trees down, no power and little cell service.

There wasnt much we could do so we went and had breakfast and everything was packed. After we spend most of the day outside Sunday. Through the day I didn’t have service. My phone died and Walker had to charge it on the way to grab some food. It’s not like I really needed it anyways with not having service. I just really wanted it to take pictures of Walker and the kids on Father’s Day. It wasn’t the most ideal Father’s Day. A mess to clean up, the kids were grumpy, and no power was a little added stressor.

I thought about Walker most of the day and journaled to him.

I thought about the sacrifices he makes for our family and how lucky I am to have him. My kids don’t know it now but they will one day, their dad is one in a million. I know I’ve got a good one but having no distractions and internet to browse through really for me thinking about how lucky we are.

Evening time was settling in and the sun was starting to set on us and some anxiety about kids and bedtime started to creep in. Luckily we had portable sound machine chargers for the kids. Normally we have the kids set up with monitors and the whole shebang but I had to let go of any anxiety I had around not having it and turn to God to not overthink it.

I prepped the food & got things ready for Walk to put on the grill.

Searching around our house for candles to be able to see if our phones died I found a bunch of battery powered candles my mother in law has purchased for a party. It sparked my brain to decide to “date” Walker at the house. We planned to grill out for Father‘s Day so that’s exactly what we did and had a candlelit dinner after getting the kids down.

We’ve been talking for weeks now about how we need to go on a date or just get outta town. Even if that means with kids. Sunday night was better than any dining out experience. I set the table with some of my pretty dishes, candles, and our favorite drink as of current, a mango habanero mule. I asked Walker if we should get dressed up for each other and he responded “ You wake up beautiful. You don’t have to dress up for me. Just take a shower and I will after.”

We had dinner and Auggie’s musical lullaby sound machine was playing in the background. It was romantic, genuine, inexpensive, and everything my heart needed.

Auggie ended up in bed with us for the first time since being in his big boy bed and I can’t say either one of us was mad about it. He’s not cuddly and he was last night.

Now it’s Monday. We don’t have power still. They’re talking like it’ll be Saturday before we have it. Our yard is a wreck. Walk isn’t working today. I’m in the Reasors parking lot about to go in to get ice for the coolers. Before I go in I’m journaling a memory I don’t want to forget.

I’ve learned a few things from this,

There is beauty in the dark things of life.

You create your own happiness.

& you can save money date your husband from home.

We talked about doing this “No power” kinda date again soon. We both really loved it.

Until next time, I gotta go get some ice.

Love + Light always,

Syd

Edit * Reasors is out of ice. It’s like 350k people are without power or something.